Post by aresian on Jul 7, 2012 4:07:23 GMT -5
Ecstasy: MDMA, the "raver drug" of choice for various reasons but mostly because it makes you feel good... Kinda a reason most things get abused. It is an addictive substance for sure and many of the street forms have harmful additives. So I don't suggest it to be used or condone it.
However, I learn from experience on those things that wont kill me immediately or I reduce the risk of death to zero by knowing where any synthetic drug, if I was so inclined to use it, would come from.
Honestly this one I first took with no knowledge of it at all. I was lucky and had a wonderful experience because I had friends that knew not to feed me alcohol and instead gave me lots of water to drink (not too much but enough to keep the experience as safe as can be on this particular chemical).
It was a scary good experience on the substance. Scary because I could see how one would get addicted to it. It makes you feel good by screwing with the serotonin in the brain. Of course you feel good.
It worked for me the first time I took it. I danced around a fire and had a good time just dancing around a fire with only a few witnesses. I wasn't comfortable in crowded places while on it, I'm not sure how people use it as a rave thing I guess they just up the dose until they just don't care. Anyways, so my fire dance was a good experience weather I was on this substance or not I love campfires anyways. The second time I took it at a festival because I had hit a depressed state because the whole thing was a pretty big bust for my business so I talked to someone and said what I'd like to make myself feel better. A second stupid moment but I like to learn from my stupid moments so I will note what happened.
I did feel great it improved my mood ten fold at least. I spent the night in the forest with someone I wanted to do so with sober anyways... just kissing for those with an overactive imagination. However, the one night was good the next month was very bad. The chemical balance took a lot longer to return to my brain than it had after the previous experience. One reason I do not wish to take this substance again. I guess my body just did not appreciate it and I messed with a chemical that I probably need some genuine medical help with. I got over the affects by finding foods that helped return serotonin to my body and helped return the balance. Eating healthy helps in many ways besides when your brain gets messed up.
So, did I connect spiritually with this drug? Yes, I did... Like I said the experience while on it is not unpleasant. The after affects are what I did not like and it frightened me the way it pushed my mind the wrong direction for longer than it should have. I wont do it again but the experience was enlightening.
However, I learn from experience on those things that wont kill me immediately or I reduce the risk of death to zero by knowing where any synthetic drug, if I was so inclined to use it, would come from.
Honestly this one I first took with no knowledge of it at all. I was lucky and had a wonderful experience because I had friends that knew not to feed me alcohol and instead gave me lots of water to drink (not too much but enough to keep the experience as safe as can be on this particular chemical).
It was a scary good experience on the substance. Scary because I could see how one would get addicted to it. It makes you feel good by screwing with the serotonin in the brain. Of course you feel good.
It worked for me the first time I took it. I danced around a fire and had a good time just dancing around a fire with only a few witnesses. I wasn't comfortable in crowded places while on it, I'm not sure how people use it as a rave thing I guess they just up the dose until they just don't care. Anyways, so my fire dance was a good experience weather I was on this substance or not I love campfires anyways. The second time I took it at a festival because I had hit a depressed state because the whole thing was a pretty big bust for my business so I talked to someone and said what I'd like to make myself feel better. A second stupid moment but I like to learn from my stupid moments so I will note what happened.
I did feel great it improved my mood ten fold at least. I spent the night in the forest with someone I wanted to do so with sober anyways... just kissing for those with an overactive imagination. However, the one night was good the next month was very bad. The chemical balance took a lot longer to return to my brain than it had after the previous experience. One reason I do not wish to take this substance again. I guess my body just did not appreciate it and I messed with a chemical that I probably need some genuine medical help with. I got over the affects by finding foods that helped return serotonin to my body and helped return the balance. Eating healthy helps in many ways besides when your brain gets messed up.
So, did I connect spiritually with this drug? Yes, I did... Like I said the experience while on it is not unpleasant. The after affects are what I did not like and it frightened me the way it pushed my mind the wrong direction for longer than it should have. I wont do it again but the experience was enlightening.
